Arrg...

I really don't have that much luck...everytime I like a guy, it always comes back to bite me. This last guys was wicked cute; varsity lacrosse play, 4.0 GPA just all around a great guy. Well I started liking him in January but I was always too chicken to talk to him and then lacrosse season came around and all the guys on the team found out I liked him. Demar would always try adn get me to talk to him when I was near him and then Brandon went right up to him and said, "You should go out with McKenna!" Im really not that straight forward and I like guys to make the first move but he didn't seem like he was ever going to. I wrote him a note last week and told him how I was really shy around guys that I liked and I am usually not that shy but after a few days, when he didn't write me back, I got worried and kinda gave up on him. I mean he knows that I like him....just about everyone told him....so if he had wanted to say something to me, he had the prefect chance. He knew how I felt but he didn't do a thing. So know I don't even know what to do. I mean I usually always like a guy but there was just something about him that was SO perfect. Everyone thought that he would like me and they just got my hopes up to high but its not their fault...its mine. I always fall for the guys that have no interest in me what so ever and I hate it. I mean for once I would just like to find a guy that likes me for me and doesn't want to hang out with me just to makeout. Uhh...high school guys suck a ton. Well tonight is movie night at Sassy Cassie's house but I don't know what we are going to watch. Someone said that she rented the 40 Year Old Vigin but I don't think thats a movie she would even be remotely interested in seeing. I guess I should go get ready.

-Nicole