GUYS!!

I don't know what to think anymore. One minute I can't get a boyfriend to save my life and then the next minute I have guys falling all over me. I started talking to this kid that my friend Ashley wanted me to talk to and it ends up he likes me...here's what he said...

him: so hows the life of love

me: haha...or lack of...im kinda giving up of guys...stupid...i know but i mean every guy i like doesnt like me so its not really worth it any more

him: dam

him: it
me: yeah

me: haha...why do you say darn it?

him: nvm

me: no...tell me lol

him: i no its weird since i jyst met u online but i like u

He wants to go out with weekend if he doesn't have a lacrosse game but I am kinda hoping that he does. I don't know if I really want to hang out with a guy that is that easy. I like a fight...the whole fun is the chase. I mean, yeah I wanted to go out with Ryan but I kinda liked playing hard to get and stuff like that but it sucked when I found out he didn't like me. If I end up going out with him this weekend I think I'm gonna double because I wouldn't really feel comfortable with just him...it would be weird...we have only ever talked online and I wouldnt want to get stuck with him if he was wicked boring. Hopefully Kelly will be able to go with Garret and then I can hang with Cory but who knows.

Arrg...

I really don't have that much luck...everytime I like a guy, it always comes back to bite me. This last guys was wicked cute; varsity lacrosse play, 4.0 GPA just all around a great guy. Well I started liking him in January but I was always too chicken to talk to him and then lacrosse season came around and all the guys on the team found out I liked him. Demar would always try adn get me to talk to him when I was near him and then Brandon went right up to him and said, "You should go out with McKenna!" Im really not that straight forward and I like guys to make the first move but he didn't seem like he was ever going to. I wrote him a note last week and told him how I was really shy around guys that I liked and I am usually not that shy but after a few days, when he didn't write me back, I got worried and kinda gave up on him. I mean he knows that I like him....just about everyone told him....so if he had wanted to say something to me, he had the prefect chance. He knew how I felt but he didn't do a thing. So know I don't even know what to do. I mean I usually always like a guy but there was just something about him that was SO perfect. Everyone thought that he would like me and they just got my hopes up to high but its not their fault...its mine. I always fall for the guys that have no interest in me what so ever and I hate it. I mean for once I would just like to find a guy that likes me for me and doesn't want to hang out with me just to makeout. Uhh...high school guys suck a ton. Well tonight is movie night at Sassy Cassie's house but I don't know what we are going to watch. Someone said that she rented the 40 Year Old Vigin but I don't think thats a movie she would even be remotely interested in seeing. I guess I should go get ready.

-Nicole